The more mainstream fan fiction gets, the more embarrassed I
become about the whole thing. Back when I was regularly involved with it, the only
people who understood what the word fanfic meant
were the ones reading and writing alongside me. Nowadays, though, every soccer mom on my block is reading smutty, thinly veiled Twilight fanfic and the author of The Very Secret Diaries has appeared on the New York Times bestseller list.
I may have gone largely revisionist about it in recent years, but fan fiction’s siren call has always been too loud for me to ignore. I’ve given up on it probably a dozen times, but it’s
never quite given up on me. Which explains today’s post.
Weirdly, one of the things that drew me to Korean drama was that it felt a bit like fan fiction: The whole genre is full of uncomplicated, unrestrained pleasures that are refreshingly unconcerned with reality and plausibility. The things you most want from Korean dramas almost inevitably happen, making them feel predictable in the coziest, homiest way possible, just like fan fic. And like fan fiction, I often find myself relating to dramas on a level beyond objective quality: it’s their emotion that really draws me in—their sincerity, to borrow a uniquely Kdrama word.
Weirdly, one of the things that drew me to Korean drama was that it felt a bit like fan fiction: The whole genre is full of uncomplicated, unrestrained pleasures that are refreshingly unconcerned with reality and plausibility. The things you most want from Korean dramas almost inevitably happen, making them feel predictable in the coziest, homiest way possible, just like fan fic. And like fan fiction, I often find myself relating to dramas on a level beyond objective quality: it’s their emotion that really draws me in—their sincerity, to borrow a uniquely Kdrama word.
There doesn’t seem to be much English-language fan fiction
out there about Korean dramas, much to my sorrow. I can see why this is the
case: Kdramas have very limited shelf lives, so it’s hard to build too much of a
fandom around a single series. It also takes a lot of guts (stupidity?) to
write about a culture you barely understand.
But there are some shows that I just can’t quite put out of
my mind. Of course my beloved Coffee Prince is the prime example: when I finished watching that drama’s final episode, it felt like losing a friend. Ever since, I’ve found myself randomly wondering what might have become of its characters. To indulge that curiosity, I finally decided to give Coffee
Prince fic a shot--even if I’m about five
years too late for anyone to care.
Note that the story certainly won’t stand up to any K-picking (if there is such a parallel to the Brit-picking of Harry Potter fan authors), but I hope it’s at least in keeping with Coffee Prince’s sweet vibe.
Note that the story certainly won’t stand up to any K-picking (if there is such a parallel to the Brit-picking of Harry Potter fan authors), but I hope it’s at least in keeping with Coffee Prince’s sweet vibe.
The Transcendent Happiness of Choi Han Gyul
Fandom: Coffee Prince
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 2,800-ish
Contents: Pure cotton-candy fluff
-Cup 1-
“I can’t do this. I just can’t.”
Even if Choi Han Gyul hadn’t seen the quivering of her chin—a telltale giveaway that Eun Chan was about to cry—he would have known something was wrong from the panicked tremor in her voice.
He’d been suspicious when Eun Chan had returned utterly silent from picking out a wedding dress with the help of their mothers. That had been more than a month a go, back when he was too busy with the new Coffee Prince location to take a few hours off even for something as important as that. Now that he’d accompanied her to the posh bridal salon (Princess Hours, read the sign out front) for the final fitting, there was no doubt something was up.
Even if Choi Han Gyul hadn’t seen the quivering of her chin—a telltale giveaway that Eun Chan was about to cry—he would have known something was wrong from the panicked tremor in her voice.
He’d been suspicious when Eun Chan had returned utterly silent from picking out a wedding dress with the help of their mothers. That had been more than a month a go, back when he was too busy with the new Coffee Prince location to take a few hours off even for something as important as that. Now that he’d accompanied her to the posh bridal salon (Princess Hours, read the sign out front) for the final fitting, there was no doubt something was up.
Eun Chan was standing across the richly appointed room, in
front of a trio of mirrors that reflected her at every angle when she spun around. She looked more beautiful than ever, like a fairytale character come to life, and his heart had nearly stopped when she stepped out of the dressing area. The
dress glowed snowy white against her pale skin, and Choi Han Gyul would have
sworn she was surrounded in a halo of spectral glow, as if the heavens had
chosen to focus a spotlight on her alone, out of all the people in the world. The wedding dress was strapless and covered with intricate lace and
beadwork, clinging to her curves almost indecently before it swelled into a
full skirt that just brushed the ground. It even had a train that rivaled something you’d seen in a royal wedding.
It was perfect. Or it would have been, if his fiancée wasn’t
slumped forward, her two hands covering her face as if she were trying to hide
from her own reflection.
“Miss?” The sales clerk seemed unsure just what to do. She
was a slender older woman, wearing an elegant suit with her hair swept back
into a perfectly smooth bun. She’d probably never worn jeans her life, or
worked four jobs to support her family, or come to the realization that she was
stronger than practically every man she met. In short, she was no Eun Chan.
“Are you unhappy with the alterations?” she asked tentatively. “We could take
the waist in a little more if you were willing to wear the corset, at least.”
“I will not wear a corset!” Eun Chan spoke from behind her
hands, sounding like a toddler about to throw a major tantrum.
At this, Choi Han Gyul sprang to action. “Will you give us a
minute?” He dismissed the clerk with a winning smile, pleased to note in the
widening of her eyes that even at her age she wasn’t immune to his charms.
When she’d left, he walked to Eun Chan’s side. “Hey, you.”
The skirt was even fuller than he thought—he couldn’t even get close enough to
pull her hands away from her face. “What’s wrong?”
Still from behind her hands: “Nothing. I’m fine. This is the
dress your mother chose, and it’s my honor to wear it.” She was shaking a
little bit, with anger, maybe, or with tears.
“Why don’t you try telling me the truth instead?” He wanted to pull her into his embrace and kiss her until they forgot where they
were, until she sighed and melted into his arms. But he could only figure out
how to awkwardly pat her on one alluringly bare shoulder—damn that dress.
“Remember, we’re in this together.”
Finally Eun Chan lowered her hands, exposing the tears that
were slowly working their way down her cheeks. “I swore I was done wearing
fancy dresses and pretending to be someone else. But look at me.” She spoke
quickly and a little too loudly, as if she’d already spent every ounce of
energy just to hold the words in this long. “It’s like I’m a stranger. A visitor
from the planet Disney Princess. People at the wedding will say, ‘Who’s the
girl Han Gyul is marrying? He must have finally come to his senses and dumped
that ugly old Eun Chan.’”
“You look beautiful, Eun Chan,” he whispered, pushing forward, dress be damned, until he could
wrap his arms around her. It was as if she were wearing a mattress not an
article of clothing, and the displaced skirt swung out behind her, rearing up
in a valiant effort to hold its shape. It took up so much space back there it
was almost as if there was a third person in the room. “But it’s no big deal if you don’t like this dress—my mom will get over it. We’ll get you a new one…you can try on every dress in Seoul until you
find the one you love the most.”
“I’d rather drown myself in the Han than try on another wedding dress,” she sniffled, resting
her forehead against his shoulder. “And this is already bought and paid for. Somebody already went half blind sewing on all these damn beads.”
People make weddings seem like fun, as if they’re all
sparkles and rainbows and dreams come true. All along, Choi Han Gyul had known
this wasn’t really the case, especially not when the people getting married were
insanely busy and wanted nothing more than to get on with their life together.
It killed him saying goodbye to her every night, sending her home to sleep in
her childhood bedroom instead of where she really belonged, curled up against
him. And it didn’t help that his mother had decided to give them the greatest
wedding ever held. Han Gyul knew she was only doing it to show how much she
loved them, but with each new detail Eun Chan had become less and less
interested. Two hundred guests? The biggest, most posh wedding venue in Seoul?
A fifteen-thousand-dollar designer dress? That was all to make their parents
happy, not them. Sure, the dress made her look like every man’s dream bride, but Choi Han Gyul would have been just as happy to marry Eun Chan in her everyday uniform of baggy jeans and a hoodie.
“Then we’ll give it to Ha Rim. Wasn’t that drama he was doing set direction for short a fancy wedding dress? It looks more like something that belongs on TV than in the real world, anyway.”
“Then we’ll give it to Ha Rim. Wasn’t that drama he was doing set direction for short a fancy wedding dress? It looks more like something that belongs on TV than in the real world, anyway.”
Eun Chan’s arms snaked around him and tightened until he could
feel her every breath, even through the thick layer of dress between them.
“This thing weighs like seventy pounds—I can barely walk in it. You might have
to piggyback me down the aisle. But your mother loves it. She cried when she
saw me in it. Cried.”
He could hear the bustle of the store outside their private dressing room, and beyond that the traffic on the road out front. So how was it that he felt as if they were the only people in the world, now that they were finally so close to really belonging to each other? “Let’s just elope. I bet Jeju is nice this time of year, or
we could go to America. I’ve heard you can get married at a drive-through
there. You could probably be naked if you wanted.”
“Gross, you pervert.” She swatted his backside, and maybe
smiled a little against his neck. “I want to wear something. Just not this.”
“So let’s go right now. I’m marrying a girl, not a dress.”
Han Gyul pulled back just far enough to kiss her, a tender press of his lips
against hers to prove he meant what he said. “Let’s get you out of that thing.”
He had kissed away her remaining tears and was about to go
back in for another round when she finally spoke again, laughing a little.
“We’d need a degree in engineering and a forklift to get me out of this nightmare.”
“I don’t know. I’ve had a lot of practice getting you out of
your clothes lately.”
With an exaggerated cracking of his knuckles, Choi Han Gyul got to work. Four hooks, three buttons, and a huge, industrial-size
zipper later, the saleswoman returned to discover Han Gyul on his knees, half
under Eun Chan’s massive skirt as he tried to find a way to lift the dress off her.
They found Eun Chan’s real wedding dress on the way home. They had
cut down a narrow alleyway to return to the car when she saw it hanging in the
window of a rundown-looking shop. It was a little like a hanbok, with a
sleeveless, fitted jacket and a knee-length, fluttery skirt in a shade of
peach so pale it almost looked white. The shop owner had made it with the help
of her granddaughters, based on the dress she’d sewn for her own wedding more
than fifty years earlier. Eun Chan was so sure that the dress was meant to be hers that she didn’t even try it on. It cost a hundred dollars, but when the owner looked away Han Gyul left closer to a thousand.
On their wedding day, all Choi Han Gyul could think about
was a phrase he’d once read in a book: “transcendently happy.” All his life,
he’d been an easy-going, cheerful guy. But until the moment he took Eun Chan’s
hands and kissed her for the first time as his wife, in front of their family
and friends, he’d never really known that happiness could be so intense it almost hurt.
“I love you,” she’d whispered after the kiss, soft so he
alone could hear it.
To that, he had only one response. “I love you more.”
-Cup 2-
She lazed in the tub, the air sweet-smelling and steamy hot,
with just enough bubbles left in the water to protect her modesty. Choi Han
Gyul had gone into the bathroom for purely innocent reasons—you had to brush
your teeth whenever you ate something, right? He had just had a breath mint and
hated to go to the dentist, so of course off he went to the bathroom for some
dental hygiene. His reasons for going definitely had nothing to do with Eun
Chan in the bath, with seeing her at such a private, intimate moment, with
leaning against the tub and watching her eyes slip closed with pleasure as the
warm water soothed muscles that must have been aching from a long day on her
feet at the second shop of the Coffee Prince.
“Why are you staring at me again?” She spoke softly, her
eyes still closed. Her voice took him by surprise, but it certainly didn’t make
him jump, or make his gaze snap guiltily to her face and away from the
bare skin he’d been admiring. Absolutely not.
“Don’t you know there’s a water shortage in this country?”
Han Gyul demanded, maybe even managing to sound a bit indignant. “But here you
are, filling a giant bathtub in the middle of the day.”
“It’s creepy, you know.” Eun Chan cocked a playful eyebrow
at him, meeting his eyes at last with a barely suppressed grin. “You watching
me from out there, I mean. Very creepy, you stalker.” He watched her roll her
shoulders, then push her arms into the air above her head, arching her back
into a stretch. If it was possible to die of happiness, that would have been
the end of Choi Han Gyul—his girl was showing off for him, no doubt about it.
“I’m sorry, but I can’t help staring at such a wasteful
person.” He responded, reaching into the tub and sending a plume of water
splashing into Eun Chan’s face. “Wasting water, wasting electricity, and
probably dreaming about eating us out of house and home as soon as she’s done
with her bath, too.”
And then her grin finally surfaced, turning into a challenge
as she spoke. “It would be less creepy if you watched me from in here, I think.”
That was all the invitation he needed. Choi Han Gyul probably
set land speed records shucking his clothes and climbing into the tub beside
his new wife, not caring that he displaced enough water to cause an
ever-growing puddle to spread out across the bathroom floor. Eun Chan, laughing with disbelief throughout the entire process, slid over to allow space for him to settle in next to her on the tub’s bench. Instead he tugged her onto his lap, wrapping
his arms around her so tight she expelled her breath with a quiet oof.
“Love you,” she whispered, her face buried in the curve of
his neck, her hands gently tracing the lines of his back.
“Love you more.”
-Cup 3-
Eun Chan slept sprawled out, her arms and legs askew and her
hair sticking up in every imaginable direction, as if she’d just stuck her
finger in an electrical outlet. Choi Han Gyul liked watching her sleep. During
the day she was always busy, and even when she sat down she was never really still.
But she slept like a person drugged, utterly oblivious to everything around
her, her chest rising with smooth, rhythmic breaths and her full lips parted
ever so slightly.
The Sunday morning sunlight was beginning to creep up the
wall across from them, so Han Gyul carefully slid out of bed to adjust the
drapes in hopes of allowing her to sleep a bit longer. She’d worked extra late
last night at the third shop of the Coffee Prince, and even after coming home hadn’t been able to get to sleep for hours. He knew well enough that
working around so much coffee it sometimes felt like you absorbed the caffeine
through your pores, and might never manage to sleep again. When she woke,
they’d cuddle and talk and maybe—if he was lucky—finally find the time to do
something a bit more grown up.
After years and years of marriage, he’d almost gotten used
to the pleasure of sleeping next to his favorite person in the world every
night. But the patter of feet outside their closed bedroom door reminded him of
two things he doubted he’d ever get used to.
The doorknob turned ever so slowly, and in peeked Choon Hee,
still wearing her Pororo pajamas. At five, she was everything he should have
expected from any child of Eun Chan’s: obstinate and tomboyish and totally,
utterly perfect.
“Dad? We’re bored.” They’d been struggling lately to get
her to stay in her room after she woke up, playing quietly without waking her
little brother. Clearly, though, they’d been failing. “Can we come in?”
Han Gyul held one finger to his lips and pointed to Eun
Chan’s sleeping form before waving them into the bedroom. Choon Hee ran over, somehow
managing to make more noise than an entire herd of elephants would when
covering the same ground. Grabbing her under the arms, he swung her up onto the
bed, depositing her next to him with a tickle. Jung Hwa toddled over in her
wake, his thumb firmly planted in his mouth. “How’s my little man this
morning?” His son grinned shyly, presenting raised arms, ready to be lifted up
beside his sister.
“Sleeping is so boring. Why do you adults spend so much time
in bed?” Choon Hee restlessly kicked her legs up in the air, bouncing up and
down beside her mother. I’m going to kill the first boy who tries to show
you why we spend so much time in bed, Han
Gyul thought to himself, pulling up Jung Hwa’s pajamas up to blow a quiet
raspberry on his plump belly. The little boy giggled, tugging his shirt down
and smiling that impossibly wide smile of his, the one that always reminded his
father of Han Sung.
Settling Jung Hwa on the bed, Han Gyul saw Eun Chan stretch
massively and turn to face her little family. “Good morning my babies,” she
whispered, pulling both children into her arms with a drowsy sigh.
If it was possible to freeze time and live forever in one
moment, Han Gyul knew that this was the one he’d chose. He had once thought
that being together with Eun Chan was the ultimate delight, waking up with
her and loving her and always knowing that she belonged to him and him alone,
just as he belonged to her. But now they belonged two more people, and
sometimes it made him think he might explode from happiness. He thought Eun
Chan probably felt the same way.
Han Gyul’s gaze locked with his wife’s as sleep gradually
reclaimed their children. “I love you,” he finally said, thinking that maybe
silence wasn’t enough.
“I love you more,” she replied.
*_* Amanda, you beautiful tropical fish.
ReplyDeleteHmm...thanks. I think? ;)
ReplyDelete::checks self for gills::
Haha ^^
DeleteI hate you though. Seriously, hate. Everytime I read your blogs you make me want to go back and watch Coffee Prince. Every time!!! Not that that's a bad thing.. I think it enriches my life more just thinking about it. What's worse though, it makes me want coffee.. and no matter what, places around here do not make coffee quite as good looking as what they make in Coffee Prince.. siiigh, oh well.
Even though I've probably never eaten a waffle that didn't come from a box/toaster in my life, every time I watch Coffee Prince it leaves me desperate for one of Sun Ki's concoctions. Tomato waffles? Interesting, very interesting.
DeleteAnd when I get the urge to watch Coffee Prince but don't want to spend the next week on it, I cheat. =X
I always wanted more after the ending of CP...it seems incomplete no matter how many times I watch the show...or cook up a scene of my own when i don't like what i see. After stumbling upon ur FF rather one shot...I feel content :) for now may be. Ya know CP i can never have enough of it.
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Not sure if you will see this comment since it has been years since this was uploaded but I just wanted to tell you how nice it is to read a well written Coffee Prince fanfic. There aren't many of them lying around and I find myself craving for some post-canon stories since watching the recent CP documentary. I think you have captured Han-gyul really well especially his comments about water shortage and wasteful Eun-chan. I feel like I want to hug this fic! Thank you for writing this.
ReplyDeleteI just watched Coffee Prince for the first time in the year of 2024 and I just want to leave a message here to say how much I appreciated this!! 💕 I'm thinking about writing my own over on AO3
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